well, it’s official! after a very last minute decision i’m heading out to SDCC next weekend! for everyone that is planning on being there, let me know so we can meet up!
also, last night before bed, i finished reading the last volume of y the last man. trust me when i say i’m not going to spoil anything here (i’d never want to spoil a series this good for anyone), but i just have to write something. i could not sleep after putting down that book. i was seriously wide awake for over two hours thinking about what i had read. i should have just got up and gone drawn or something, but i really wanted to fall asleep. but i couldn’t! it was like this mixed up emotion of being depressed that this great story i’ve been reading forever was over and the excitement of going out to san diego next weekend.
and then i realized what i was really depressed about.
it wasn’t anything directly related to anything within the last volume. i was depressed over what i had read over the course of the entire series. the whole time i was reading about yorick and agent 355 and dr mann and the countless other very real characters vaughan had created, i just wanted to know what happened next. i think i read the ytlm trades faster than any book i ever have before. the story was just really riveting i guess. i wanted to know the cause of the mystery. i wanted to know where yorick and co were going to go next. and who they were going to run into. but then, it was over. and i couldn’t spend time with them anymore.
and i realized this is how i kinda go through life. i’m always looking for what’s next. or working towards what’s next. and not really focusing on spending time with what’s actually happening all around me. after reading ytlm, i wish i didn’t read through it so quickly. i wish i spent more time with the characters. and luckily, being a book, i can go back and read their adventure all over again someday. but i only get one shot at this life i’m living now, so i better take the time to take it all in while i can.
years from now, when i’m looking back on this day, i might not even remember posting this entry. i might not even remember that i had just finished ytlm or been excited about heading out to sdcc. but i do know i want to remember that hug i got from jen this morning when she told me she loved me before rushing off to work. and ash falling up against my leg purring for attention. and my sister emailing me to let me know she’s going to pitch in some money to make sure i’m able to eat while i’m out west. and eating two bites of that strange foreign honey candy my boss brought back from greece before throwing it in the garbage. those are the reasons to take time out during the day.
but i don’t. i’m off to the next thing, ready to see what happens next. and not taking the time to take in what’s happening now. that’s why i was depressed.
(MAJOR YTLM SPOILIER WARNING- CLICK HERE ONLY AT YOUR OWN RISK!)
and yes, i know this is the second post in as many days with no new artwork. i’ll get that fixed right away.
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